Monday, April 28, 2008

88/59/44

88 days since I received my I600 acknowledgement email

59 days according to CIS' amended acknowledgement date

44 days since I received the Tu Du block letter

Zero new information

After reading article after article about the state of adoptions from Vietnam I feel sick.  Every day brings a new article with more damning information and accusations.  I don't know what is going to happen now.  I  want to believe that everything is above board in Sadie's case and that her adoption will be completed, but I don't know for sure.  I am not going to apologize for being invested in and attached to this child.  It has been nearly 6 months since we were matched with each other and I have thought about her and what our life will be like every day since.  Just the thought of letting go of that future is devastating to think about.  I want her adoption to be ethical but I also want it to be completed.  It's selfish, I know, but it is how I feel. 

2 comments:

Logan & Becky said...

You are not selfish. You just want your daughter. I know how hard the wait has been for us waiting for our referral. I can't imagine the strength you must have to have waited 6 months since your referral. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for both you and Sadie.

James and Melissa said...

You aren't selfish at all!! I understand your feelings completely. I hope we both hear something soon!