I'm still having a hard time falling asleep, but once I did last night, I was able to sleep until noon. I actually woke up feeling rested and in a surprisingly good and, dare I say, hopeful mood. I decided to spend some time organizing Sadie's closet. I've been avoiding spending much time in her room these days. I took out the size 3, 4 and 5 stuff and put it in a storage bin so that everything else could fit in the closet. I finally hung up all the stuff I have bought and received in the last few months. Let me say that the closet is full of clothes from 9 months to 2T. (Yes I know that's a lot of clothing for a small girl!) I just hope she comes home soon so she doesn't start outgrowing any of them. I've already decided that anything that is too small for her will be donated to the orphanage (along with everything else I bought and friends donated for them). I haven't received new weight or measurements since February so I have no idea what size she is wearing these days. In February she was 26 inches long and weighed 15.4 pounds. I'm very curious to hear if she has gained any weight since then. My agency says new pictures and measurements could be coming soon.
I spent the rest of the day tidying up a bit, watching reruns of So You Think You Can Dance (I can't wait for the new season to start this week!) and then made lemon pasta for dinner. It was a lovely day.
So here comes a new week. I'm trying to hold on to the hopeful feeling I woke up with but I'm going to be cautiously optimistic. It feels nice to get out of the dark place I've been in for a while. I'm going to call the doctor tomorrow about getting any shots I may need and may even make an appointment to meet with the Pediatrician to get to know her a little and discuss medications I am supposed to take with me for Sadie. Here's hoping all of this positive thinking pays off.